"Now we exhort you, brethren, warn those who are unruly, comfort the fainthearted, uphold the weak, be patient with all." (I Thessalonians 5:14 New King James Version)
I just finished reading "Broken Hallelujahs" by Beth Allen Slevcove.
It's a brand new book (copyright 2016) published by InterVarsity Press.
It's a paperback of around two hundred pages and in many respects an
"easy read". Yet, it's the kind of book that (in a good way) can "rock
your world". I was unfamiliar with Beth Allen Slevcove, a Spiritual
Director and a Lutheran from San Deigo, California. I'm one of those
former Roman Catholics who couldn't get far enough away from liturgical
churches and traditions once I "got saved" over forty years ago. And,
after having spent many years in evangelical and classical Pentecostal
circles, I'm one of those who is very comfortable with certain spiritual
and secular practices and very uncomfortable with certain others.
Lutheran Beth Slevcove is one for whom liturgical services and practices
are very imporant and very much part of her world. In the book, she
also speaks positively about the practice of "running with the bulls" in
Pamplona, Spain, getting a tattoo, and a few other such practices.
Ordinarily, speaking positively of such matters would make most
Assemblies of God ministers and churchgoers over the age of fifty want
to run, not with the bulls, but as far away from these topics as
possible! Although, I went back to the practice of observing Advent
about twenty years ago and back to the practice of observing Lent about
ten years ago, much about "liturgical worship" and about earthy and
funky practices makes me want to say, "thanks but no thanks" and to
safely retreat into my own private world. But God has been stretching
me over the past several years in ways I'd never have imagined or
chosen. I often do say I'm a person who is both unconventional and
eccentric. My sense is that Beth Slevcove is unconventional and
eccentric, as well. I'm glad I didn't put her book down when parts of
it felt uncomfortable or weird. I'm glad I read the whole book. I
suspect it's one of those kind of books that I'll read again and again
and again over the next few years, and I'll probably get something new
and different out of "Broken Hallelujahs" each time I do.
this book was available for me to read six years ago. It's mainly about
the losses we experience in life that often create doubt, anger with
God, and loss of faith. It's about the whole process of trying to cope
with disappointment with God and horrific and unfair circumstances.
It's about the ugly pain of grief that well meaning friends often make
much worse by some of the inappropriate things they say. She has real
trouble with the Christian phrase, "Let go and let God". I'll save what
she says about it for when you read the book! I actually don't have
any problems with, "Let go and let God" but there are a number of
phrases that nearly sent me over the edge after the small church I
pastored was closed and I found myself out of the ministry, working a
low-paying secular job and feeling very much lost and displaced. I
recoiled at statements such as, "Move on"..."Get over it"..."I did it,
why can't you?"... and so many others.
Lest anyone get the wrong
idea, I do understand that friends, relatives, and colleagues who said
these things honestly meant well. I'm ashamed of the fact that in my
early days of ministry, I sometimes said very stupid and insensitive
things to people who were grieving. I did receive a "crash course" in
how difficult grief is when my brother died unexpectedly in 1983. Six
months later, I went through a terrible depression. The Lord revealed
to me it was grief, and it was normal, and it was something I'd have to
Ironically, Beth Slevcove also walked through the
death of her brother, which was an enormous loss for her. I won't
spoil the book for you, I'll let you read it. She shares a lot of her
own disappointments, pain, and losses. She shares what she learned, what
worked to get her through the difficult and dark times and what didn't
work. The book is made up of twenty-six mostly short chapters. At the
end of each chapter is homework for you to do, if you like, but she
makes it clear early in the book that if you don't care for that sort of
thing and want to skip the exercises at the end of the chapters, that's
fine. She admitted that when she reads books with homework at the end
of the chapters, she usually skips it and doesn't find it helpful. Boy,
did I like her honesty!
Yes, it's a book about grief and loss, but
some of what she writes is very funny! At times, I was just cracking up
laughing! At other times, I was just very quiet and reflective. For
me, the best parts of "Broken Hallelujahs" were the first few chapters
and the last few chapters. I found the middle difficult and more
challenging. Yet, that even fits something she wrote about "the U-bend
of life" and I won't spoil that, either; I'll let you read it.
this book cost me around fifteen bucks and it was well worth it.
Pastors, it's well worth the read, and it's the kind of book you'd want
to give to someone going through a difficult time with grief and loss. I
can't stress enough, get "Broken Hallelujahs" and read it!
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